Remember who you are

Remember who you are

by Theresa Crisp

Do you ever feel like you’ve lost yourself? You're just going through the motions day in and day out and you just feel like you're drifting through life. You’ve just been so involved in the day to day life and stress that somehow you’ve forgotten your purpose. What do you like to do? What have you always wanted to do? When was the last time you even asked yourself that question?

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I’ve recently been struggling with this. In early march I took a 5 day free course with the ultimate encourager - Gina DeVee. Every word she spoke reached the depths of my soul and opened something up in me that had long been put to sleep. I have not been the same since. By the end of the course, I knew without a doubt I was meant for so much more. I have been searching my soul for months now. Wondering how I ever became complacent with where I was.

Since then I’ve been taking courses, working with epic mastermind partners (including my lovely podcast partner & creator without whom this whole thing would not be possible), and trying to find my purpose all over again.

Gina Devee mentioned in the course that you needed to surrender to God - let HIm know that you are ready for him to do his will through you. It wouldn’t be overnight, but you had to surrender. And pray. Prayer is so very important to the process. In trust, prayer, and meditation is when God guides you. When He opens your mind to all the possibilities. What I struggled with in that process, and honestly still struggle with a little, is how to understand the guidance.

When God guides, it’s not always written on paper and handed to you. So how do you know what opportunities to choose? I’ve started looking for the little things - numbers, colors, phrases. This podcast and blog came from having a mastermind partner that sounded awesome in her introduction post. I just had a feeling that I had to be mastermind partners with Lilla. The course ended in March - and the mastermind partner came from the paid course I took after the free one. We have talked every week since April (the program ended in June). And she lives in London. That’s a 5 hour difference for us. We clicked and we love talking each week. One day we were just talking and I had a feeling that our conversations should be a podcast. She loved the idea - turns out she’s always wanted to do one. She went and gave me all the information I needed on equipment and she has taken the reigns and made it happen. And I’m so thankful to be a part of this ride.

The best part was that there was no real thought - just action. That’s where I think we lose ourselves - we overthink everything. Is this God guiding? Is this a good idea? What bad could happen? We don’t ask “what good can come from this?” “What if it does work?” “What if this is God guiding me?”

I know I’m in a period of transition. I made a conscious choice to take the free 5 day course. I made a point to be on the lives everyday. I made the time to put the work in each day. I didn’t think about it. I just did it. I started to remember how awesome I was. How I always wanted to be more, to be great. I love people - I love helping them, I genuinely want to see everyone succeed. And putting this work in and really looking at who I was helped me to realize what I was doing for work wasn’t cutting it. It wasn’t what I wanted and most importantly, it wasn’t my purpose. Maybe it was for a while, but I knew I needed a change. I’ve gone as far as I could go there and I needed more.

I”m still not sure exactly what my next step is. I do know that I have prayed, I’ve deepened my faith and relationship with God, I have surrendered to God and I am so excited to see where He brings me. I do have several opportunities open to me and I thank God for those. I would not be where I am now without Him and I am so very grateful for all the blessings He has given me.

As I’ve been rediscovering myself - my fire, my passion, my purpose - I recently found a development plan that I wrote a few years back. This development plan was not put into place at my job. I now know that is because it wasn't meant for there. It was meant for me to find at the exact moment I found it. I realized as I read it, I wrote it to myself. It reminded me of who I am:

“The drive to create, learn, develop, and teach is not something I intend to lose. It’s been a part of me from the beginning. I perform to the best of my ability. We need to evolve, to be innovative, and to motivate not only us but those around us. I want to inspire others to succeed. I want to accept the lifelong challenge to motivate and guide individuals.” - Me. 2018.

So you see, I’ve always known who I was. And you”ve always known who you are. You just need to decide to find yourself again. Don’t settle for where you are if you aren’t thrilled with it. Ask yourself what you like to do - what you want to do. Pray. And then take action. You will thank yourself.